Times Are Changing.

In these days of uncertainty in the world, there is one certainty left for me.

I apologize for the long absence. I’m currently taking 6 college classes (about 18 units) and I’m also about to embark on my Digital Marketing career (I plan on eventually having at least 3 different networks). But for the time being, I have 1 hour of free time right now. In truth, I’m putting aside my Anthropology 101 homework to do tomorrow instead of today. But in my defense, I’ve finished my Humanities 115 ten-page essay and I completely finished reading through my History 118 book, so technically, I created extra time to spare for this hour.

At any rate, I wanted to talk about change in terms of how it’s affecting me personally. I’ve always thought I had gone through drastic changes before, but now I realize I’ve never experienced such an emotion until these last four weeks. It’s not only that I feel different, but more over, I feel changed. Changed in a way I simply can’t describe to you.

In these days of uncertainty in the world, there is one certainty left for me.

I can see the hard work in front of me, and I don’t tremble at the thought of it. I’ve never been one to shy away from a challenge, but now, I feel even more reckless and fearless. Ironically, I wonder if I’m at least scared of what’s happening to me personally. I’ve lost all sense of fear it seems. For the last four weeks, I’ve gone through some strange transformation where I simply don’t care if I fail or not.

I don’t care what others think of me, how I might face an obstacle, or even my own thoughts on life. I’ve begun to see both the beauty and horrors in life and I don’t want this experience to end. I know I just turned 24 three weeks ago, but I believe I’m already feeling a sense of my mortality. I know that might seem strange, but when I was younger, I never thought much of my life and the many possible ways I can take it.

Now, I feel ready to take on the world. I’m ready to take my life into my own hands; ready to become responsible for my very livelihood in ways I never thought of before. In some way, I had it difficult growing up. I had to raise myself essentially because my mom used to work 60 plus hours in the home-loan industry. But in other ways, I was protected by the outside world growing up.

Luckily for me, I was always a curious child.

So at a fairly young age, I was always learning all that I could from books, whether they were fiction, non-fiction, or any other arrangement of genre. I’ve always connected with people, even those who came from incredibly different backgrounds compared to me. That’s not to say I was naïve of the cruelty that some people in the world harbor inside of themselves for reasonable reasons, but more of a sense of observational understanding of their life’s many hardships and quarrels.

There are so many things I wish I could share in this one single post, but I must go now. Time is short these days, but surprisingly enough, I don’t much mind it.

I’ll leave you all with this one simple thought: in the world, gravity keeps us down. But don’t ever let life get you down.

Until then.

Forever in Your Debt,

R.S. Noel

LACMA: Self-Reflection on Life’s Quarrel

Yet the truth of the matter is, life is more than just being nice and agreeable.

It was a fine Sunday afternoon. I spent the day at LACMA to complete an assignment for my Humanities 115 class. Nothing too out of the ordinary today happened, but what I did experience, was a small feeling of awe at all of the craftsmanship and artistic creativity housed deep within each piece.

As I walked around, observing the different pieces and the many sculptures dating back to ancient Greece to ancient Rome, I was beginning to question something deep within. A burning desire to know: What happened to our passion? I mean, as a collective. Individually, we are amazing. But as a group, this generation seems to fall flat. Of course, and ironically enough, the answer lies in history.

Our parents didn’t want to raise their children the way their parents raised theirs. Our parents wanted to treat us kindly and equally. They undoubtedly taught us some very valuable and amazing characteristic traits, no doubt.

Yet the truth of the matter is, life is more than just being nice and agreeable.

Life is about challenging yourself, it’s about raising up as a united front. It’s about getting out of your comfort zone and doing things that you might not have otherwise thought of partaking in.

If you look on the past, on our shared history, you can see that there were many different sides to the world. There were groups of people who fought valiantly, and many-a-times  even ruthlessly. But the fact of the matter is, the humans who have long since perished, knew a thing-or-two about living and about how to fight for what was right, even if they lost in the end.

Life is about both the beautiful and ugly experiences, it’s about feeling profoundly with your heart and thinking deeply with your mind. To share ideas and to take action against any injustice taken on us as a collective.

Certainly, I am very grateful I was raised in a nurturing and caring environment. It’s given me the very stable foundation I have today. However, and I say this with true love as my intent: I cannot survive alone on being nice and agreeable all the time.

Do you understand what I’m getting at?

But what I do know is this. Never take for granted the truth of your existence. Never pretend to be someone else that you’re not, just to fit in with the “cool” crowd. Do what your mind tells you to do. Even though listening to your heart is only meant for reckless, enlivened, and foolish people,  that’s the way I live my life. I live in the moment, I live for the thrill, of the rush that comes with living a true human life.

So I say this as a conclusion. Do not let anyone tell you how to live your life. After all, we’re all living in troubling times. How can anyone expect us to live so carefully? Surely, not even the gods would blame us mortal men for our actions of passion and excitement.Our original sin, I suppose you can say. Thus, I’ve found myself at a full-circle moment. Life is strange in this way, isn’t it?

Forever in Your Debt,

          R.S. Noel