Today marks the 365th day of me blogging! It’s been such an amazing ride here on WordPress’ network and I’m incredibly happy to have met so many great people on here during my first year of blogging.
I want to thank everyone that has supported me through this year. Through all of the hectic changes in my life, I think it’s best to say I’m blessed to still have a roof over my head. Life was never supposed to be fair, but this year of blogging (and living my life in general), taught me that nothing is ever guaranteed. Through a combination of luck, wit, charm, hard-work, and a dozen-or-so other traits; life is truly a rollercoaster full of unexpected twists and turns.
Thinking on it now, I suppose now would be the best time for you, my readers and audience members, to really get to know the man behind R.S. Noel.
Here are some questions I’ve composed to answer (with short and lengthy responses!).
For starters: why did I even start this website/blog?
Well, the short answer is that I felt the need to fill a gap in my time. I once had a lot of free-time and was able to express myself creatively more frequently then I do today.
The long answer? I’m an aspiring author who wants to publish a book (or 2, or 3….or 64)! I have an innate passion for writing, and I found my creative outlet here on WordPress’ network of other bloggers/photographers/creative minds. It’s awesome to be able to check the different articles/posts that go up each-and-every-day; and to see what’s happening with different people around the world. Often times, we all focus too much on other “things” that don’t really amount to much in the end – but writing is just one of those expressive means of creativity that really sticks with me.
I suppose you can say that I was “cursed” with this certainly wonderful gift when I was about 9 years old. I had often times felt frustrated when I was child because I had trouble speaking orally. I had a speech-impediment. It was pretty serious, and it caused me to go “into my shell” for about 2 or so years (before I hit puberty). During those dark years, I found solace in watching movies, playing video games, going on long walks near by apartment complex, and occasionally even drawing.
But the one hobby that really struck a cord with me was writing.
For you see; when I started writing, I would eventually come to acknowledge that small time period of my life as the beginning of what would eventually be self-dubbed as “The Golden Era” of my life.
The very first story I wrote; ended up being the very same story I’m almost finished editing today. Though I am nearly done editing said-book, I know the process will be a long and arduous road to getting traditionally published. Not to mention that this book is part of a series of 6 other books. But perhaps my biggest obstacles are not in the fictional world; but in the real one.
I don’t have any family members who are acclaimed writers; I don’t really have any connections in the publishing community, and moreover, I’ve done countless research on the matter of publishing and have realized that I need to grow a substantial audience before I can even hope of truly getting the recognition I believe this book deserves. It’s a road which many would consider “suicidal” or “a waste of time”, but I believe it’s worth a shot; even as I work on the other aspects of my life.
Another question I suppose is worth answering is: what other hobbies do I enjoy partaking in?
The short answer?: Youtube! (And also watching different films, playing video games, talking long walks in strange forests, and spending time with the people I love the most).
Time for the long answer!
Over the last 2 weeks or so, I’ve completely revamped my Youtube channel. I’ve incorporated trailer reviews, and will also be doing movie reviews as well (as the movies start rolling out)!
I used to do video game compilation videos, where I would post a collage of humorous moments. Those videos would get 100,000 views (and more). But for some reason, I quickly felt disenchanted with making those types of videos due to a lack of creativity needed in order to make them. Anyone can make compilation videos, even a kid could do it. So I decided about 2 weeks ago to get rid of all of my old content and focus on creating self-made content that felt more original in terms of the production process. Because let’s face it; clipping together random video scenes from live-streamers is no fun for the long-haul.
So, I’ve gladly made the change and haven’t looked back since. My first (new) video was uploaded only a couple of days ago; and all of the subsequent trailer reaction videos that I’ve produced since then have gradually seen a small rise in viewership (which gets me excited every time as I realize that some of those people are actually coming back to see what I have to say about different movie trailers)!
Moving on now; phew!
Third question to answer: what are you currently doing in your real life?
Well this question is pretty straight forward. I’m doing what any other sensible (and lucky) young person would be doing during this time period of his life.
I’m double majoring in Accounting and Financing; and potentially minoring in Computer & Information Science.
That was the short answer; the long answer is…
About a year-and-a-half ago, I decided to go back to college. I had initially started my college journey back when I was 19 years old. After taking a single semester, I decided to take about 4 years off (originally, it was just 2 years…but life happened, as I will explain shortly). I worked full time at my local supermarket (Ralphs), and generally just had a good time hanging out with childhood friends and making the best of my situation. Fast-forward to turning 23, I realized I was in a rut.
I had no specialized skills that this ever-changing workforce in America is requiring of its people nowadays. At best, I was a decent-enough writer who worked at a local supermarket by day; and wrote by night. Because you see, I wrote the majority of my time when I was younger. What also caused my original “2-year” hiatus from college was the relationship I found myself deeply infatuated in. I had a solid 3-year relationship with a girl who was about 3-and-a-half years my senior. We had the time of our lives then. Even though we didn’t have much, we had each other during tough times. We both worked at the same place too, so it was nice to be able to hang out from time-to-time.
Then shit hit the proverbial fan.
I realized when I was 23 years old, that the relationship couldn’t last forever. The reason being? I was on a fast-track to going absolutely nowhere. I had managed to accrue about $10,000 in debt (now down to about $7,500 – spread out across two credit cards). Not to mention, I had also failed miserably in terms of living up to the “standards” of society. I was still living with my parents, I had a 1992 Toyota Tercel (and still do; it works perfectly fine), and I felt like I had wasted possibly the best-years of my life.
It was around this time I knew I had to go back to school. I had to do something (anything really) with my still young life.
So with about 2 weeks of planning out my future life, I called up the girl I was seeing at the time and told her I needed to talk with her in person.
She had a feeling where this was going; as is the nature of women at times.
So instead, I broke it off with her over the phone since she didn’t want to waste her time (and mine) by having me drive down to her house, or for her to drive up to where I live.
So, we had a quick break-up. I thought (naively) I would magically feel better.
But I was not prepared for the ramifications.
It took me a good 4-5 months to recuperate after that breakup. She was my first (for everything), and I couldn’t manage to get myself out of the deep depression which took a-hold of me during that summer of 2016. I remember vividly going to work almost everyday and feeling useless and meaningless. It had gotten so bad, that at one point, I had to place my 2-week notice. Miraculously, the next school semester was going to start in about 3 weeks, so I signed up for 5 classes (ended up dropping one class due to my depression), and passed that semester with 3 “A’s” and 1 “B”. I don’t really know how I managed to pull that off, especially because I didn’t feel motivated at all. Looking back now, I remember immersing myself into the material from each of my classes and really delving deep into the knowledge-base provided by each professor.
Fast-forward to late 2017.
I managed to get through all of my lower-division classes, and currently working on my Accounting and Financing classes that I need to complete in order to get into the upper division for both majors.
The only other lower-division class I need is Calculus for Business. But that will be easy for me to complete since I’m taking it over the span of 2 classes this year.
Otherwise from that, I’ve somehow managed to position myself to at least obtaining a somewhat decent standard of living through my majors; I’ve managed to learn how to finance my daily, weekly, and monthly expenses; and I’ve learned the true value of utilizing every single minute of a day.
Though I certainly miss the days of carefree expression and being able to “take it easy”; I wouldn’t change what I have right now for anything. I’ve learned so many valuable things through my dedication and hard-work. I’ve learned how to appreciate the little that I do have, and I’ve learned how to be a better son even through tough times.
I know I may not have a private yacht, or own property; but what I do know, is this: I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life. I know someday I will do something (anything) with my life, and for the time being, I will continue to focus on the little foundation that I have built up for myself so far.
And with that; I believe it’s the best time to end this lengthy post!
Thank you again to all of my supporters, readers, and friends! I’ve especially enjoyed getting to know some of you throughout the last several months, and I look forward to hopefully seeing where life takes all of us. Whether we hit a couple of “bumps” along the road, or whether we have manage to “fail” at something; what matters the most in the end – is the community of like-minded individuals we all find ourselves a part of.
May my 2nd year of blogging be as-equally-as fun and interesting as this one was!
Forever in Your Debt,